well lately i have a lot of sketches but non of them is ready..
here some for example:







i plan to finish at least some of them.. and i have orders to do on my DA page... hope to finish it one day... hh

good eve.
SE. <3

my-my.. LOOK AT THE HOUR it's 12:37 am... OMG!
i need to wake up at 5:30.. damn it.

oh well, it can't be helped for now, i guess it's over drinking coffee. XD
yeah lately i'm drinking more coffee thank water, and (i know it's killing) i started to smoke frequently.. i think here nothing better then a cigarette and a cup of coffee at the morning. <333
my mom don't know. if she will.. guess i would be dead.
man, she still think that i'm her lil daughter that don't know a thing.. she'll be disappoint when figured out that i'm not an angel she think i am. hhh
btw... last month me and by boyfriend celebrate 7 months together, just to think how fast the time goes by. =\
i think i've changed and it's not like i don't feel nothing to him.. i'm not sure it's love, but i'm quiet sure there is something.
i'm happy when he hug me, and i wish we could stay together in this soon-over hug. he is so warm and nice, like plushy toy.. a bear.. man, just to think i'm anemic person and he warming me up. so lovely~



during this day i was listening to music and suddenly i found a pretty Japanese singer named Ito Yuna, she is almost good as Mika Nakashima.. or maybe she IS good as her, i'm not sure. but i love her songs, so beautiful, colorful and mean full. <3

one more thing, last week i've got 3k page view at deviant-art ( http://silenteve.deviantart.com/ ) and i opened a "gift art" order. heh.. i've got 5 requests less then a week.. :)
nice to see that people appreciate my stuff.
and i've already started to work on one of the works! on Kaoru, the character of my friend DragonX :)




it's not that i love her more then others (or maybe so... lol) but i've just have inpy to her character.
the idea is that this boy made up of light and that he is kindda became one with the light from the window. cute boya~ <3
truly i don't know when i'll finish.. because my computer is SCREAMING for free place on cd and i don't have... damn it. I've erase all i can but still without success :'<
guess my computer need a touch of expert.. or maybe i need a new computer, but.. no, no way i don't have money for tablet that is cheap.. so for computer i don't have money for sure!!!! damn it... ;___;

ok i guess it's better for me to go now..
bye~

I'm thinking to start project.
and i found it pretty hard to find a topic that i'll be focus on.
but i think that i found one!
I'll try and see if it's possible to me to work in one theme for long time. X)

but till then..
here some wips from my las work silence

you also can find it in my DA web http://silenteve.deviantart.com/

the wips are showing a process on the bg (the trees).
truly i've planed to do a wips for the whole thing but i forgot about it. x__X *get shot*
so please forgive me and enjoy what i have. U_U
although it's not much..

btw, i'm drawing with mouse and NOT tablet.













here i've done a sketch of the girl.. look like a ghost lol.
althought.. maybe it what she is. X)


final sketch, after that i've started to make a lines of the girl, coloring and adds to the bg.

maybe next time it'll be more successful!
lol.

SE :)

call me whatever you want, but i wanna loose weight!
it's not that i'm fat - in fact ppl say that i'm thiny and stuff....... but they are lier!!!!! i'm totally fat!!!!!!!
I'm 173 cm and my weight is 53 :'<
i wanna be at least 50 (of course if less then it'll be wonderful, but still...).
i've started with a diet and stuff but i loose only 3 kg in the first week and then it stooped.
i don't eat meat.
i can't eat walnuts (allergy).
i can't eat much chocolate cause i feel really bad after that.
and what worse...
i can't stop eating 'cause after one day without eating i feel weak and i can't walk.
i don't eat much.. believe me.. you can see my bones.. but i have a belly!!!!
kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~
that fu**ing belly. *cry*
i can't read off of it.. i tried everything.. and legs.. it's very fat...

man, somebody give me an advice.
please...

well i've been missing here for long time, aren't I? x)
i was busy for two months with my boyfriend, and now we broek up.
everything have it's own end, isn't it?
but i'm ok.

so now i have some time to think about my self and stuff., i was searching something in the internet and suddenly i found myself in emb, pro-ana, electro goth, etc.. webs.
so i thouth, well guess it's the way i am. XD hhhh i was like that before i start dating my xb and i see that it haven't changed.
think that i'll return to what i was wo month ago - pro ana person who sick for goth life. <333
why sick? well, it's because i'm stuck at my damn army and i don't have money to buy something normal exept sucks =,,='''''''''''''''

so if someone what i can write tips for how to loose weith and stuff, or at least give links for good tips, don't be shame! :D

ok.. gonna go.
i have two galleries that i must to check.

see you around.

SE (C)

 Now, here i'll tell you about my 4 characters. Fell free to ask questions if you want. :}

Btw, there is no story behind them, i mean not something special.

I wrote the info form 'the firs one i create' to 'the last one'.

Enjoy -

 

Kadis:

Age: 22-23

Gander: male

Hair color: black

Eyes color: black. They are red when he killing or desire to blood.

Skin color: bright

Birth date: 17^th sanctuary

Death date: ---

Family: sister – Mikarin

Special: demon

* He can heal himself very fast, can't be killed by human weapon.

When he get mad nothing can stop him - he become ferocious and can kill anyone.

 

 

Dolly:

Age: 16-17

Gander: female

Hair color: fire-red

Eyes color: turquoise 

Skin color: normal

Birth date: 16^th sanctuary

Death date: ---

Special: human-doll

Friends: Mikarin

Afraid of: Trauma

 

 

Mikarin:

Age: 20

Gander: female

Hair color: black

Eyes color: one green-gray, the other is red.

Skin color: bright

Birth date: 17^th sanctuary

Death date: ---

Special: undead

Family: brother – Kadis

Adds: smoking

Weapon: knife

 

 

Trauma:

Age: no one knows, by her look it's 18

Gander: female

Hair color: black

Eyes color: toxic-green

Skin color: bright (almost white)

Birth date: somewhere in 15^th sanctuary

Death date: ---

Special: vampire

* She doesn't afraid of sunlight.

 

 Hope to draw info for each of them soon. :)

Well i've decided to to make my LJ entire more interesting.
From now I'll do more "work processes" and I'll tell you about my characters - yea they have their own story behind they face.

Today I'll show some W.i.p's.
Not long ago Kid-chan-san entire watercolor effect in photoshop. [you can see it here >> http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/60725825/]

I took one of my line-art that I've done special for y-gallery as a tester.





the final one looked like that:





I was pretty satisfied with the result, although I forgot to add noise. DX
But i liked the effect and I've done one more picture:




This drawing is pretty old, but i like it anyway. I was inspired by Sumomo Yumeka and her story 'day which i become a butterfly" + back then [and even now] people keep saying that my boys look like girls >____<;;;
So i draw this as a reaction XDDD *get shot*


If you read it, please live something small as 'thanks'... lately i don't receive comment's.. so bad, i don't know what people are thinking.

Today i finished watching Nana serial. I didn't finished to read the manga 'cause the web is still translate it, about the anime.. well i watch it too X) But there long way to the end i am not obsessed on it so it's ok if i won't watch it till the end or not watch it at all.
Nana is so cool!!! I wanna be like her.. So pride and wild so no one know what she'll do next. So free.

Here some pictures:






Well actually i have some common things with Nana: i have short hair, i love black clothes and i wear chains and belt that look like her. Also i use color my nails in same colors [i have long nails] and sometimes i can surprise even myself - I do things that i thought i won't do never.
i wanna be more like her.

I'm happy! Finally!!!
Last week I was at my friend house 4 days!!! It was so good ^___________^ I didn't saw them something like... two thousand years XDDD
Well we have some fun: went to HP - 6th film, play in Devil May Cry 3 special addition, and spend some time on talking-talking-talking-...
Btw, if someone know where i can fine cool DMC wallpaper, give me a link, i'll be very greatful!

These days have past with so much fun and happy.. but when i get home... Geeez... I even don't know from what to start.. i think from my new hair-cut... Before i went to my friend i cut my long hair and colored my fringe. When i was and my friend place i changed my mined and dye is again X) this time in lilac-purple: the top was  in lilac color and the ends of the hair in purple. It was cool! I even can't imagine to myself it'll be so cool. Anyway it was only fringe and not all the hair. My mom didn't knew about it... oh, and my friend make me a beautiful nail-art with lilac color and white-black flowers with points... very cool! <3
Ok when i came home like that... my mom wasn't surprised *sight* i thought she'll kill me! But no, she told me that it's ok and the nail art is very nice too. '_' 
2 days after it i told her that i wanna the 6th book of Harry Potter ['cause the film was good] and by the way, new shoes: gym-shoes... well 'cause... they cool! XD
She told me "fine", but the book a little bit later.. so what you think? did i actually buy it?... hmmm... the answer is NO!!! She force me to buy the bedroom-slippers, good that i choose the one i like.. they nice and all, but i want a gym-shoes!!! I want them so much!!!! >_____<;;;

Another annoying thing is the fact I'm in practice level and i almost don't draw... well i do... but not so ofter... something like 1 drawing in 2 days... it's becoming so bad.. and i spend a lot of time to finish it. *sight* And in the end i see how sucks is it... hollycrap!  I dunno what but everything i do is wrong in some way... i feel tired and i have plenty of work.. i don't sleep well at nights and in the way i get tired too..
From the boring and the sadness I'm playing in Age on mythology X) and i start to watch Nana, cute anime.. I'm in third episode. I love the look of Nana that sing.